I am nothing if not random

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I get so frustrated with my brain and my writing and the English language. I always feel like... WRITING: UR DOIN IT WRONG. like there's a better way to get my point across, a better grouping of words, a better way of positioning them to make them feel right and look right and say exactly what I want them to. like somewhere in my brain a switch is turned off and I just need to find it and turn it on and writing will happen the way I want it to.

which is bullshit, but I can't help *feeling* that way.

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*hearts, so much*

I've been feeling like this, too, only I couldn't even describe it 1/10th as well as you have here. I hope this changes for you soon, since your words are always fantastically well-arranged.

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((YOU))

I'm so, so sorry you're going through the same thing; it's a place of mental vacillation and uncertainty, which is wretched to write through or in or around, or a combination of all three.

of course the real question is, is it even possible to *be* a writer and truly be happy with anything you've written? I'm pretty sure as writers we're automatically qualified to wear INADEQUATE AND UNWORTHY buttons, since that seems to be a permanent state of mind. D:

but how are you, otherwise? and Buddy! life can't be wholly bad when you have such an awesome cat. XD